Tuesday, March 22, 2011

These are the days..

Well, you could say I am the furthest away from a woman who depends on a man. However, on my off days I get a little glimpse of what it would be like to be a stay at home mom. I love spending all my time with Laila, and I hate having to be at work just in case I miss a special moment. I get so jealous when my dad tells me she's doing something new. It's like I'm her mommy!! I should get it all..after all I'm the one who made her my everything..I feel like she is a part of me. Sometimes I joke around at work and say I'm going to strap her to my back and bring her with me. Of course that wouldn't work, I know. But days like today, these are days I'm most thankful for. I guess being a working mom makes me appreciate the precious time I have with her even more. Even though sometimes I'm so tired from everything else I have to do just to keep my head above water..That makes me feel quilty. But we do what we can do. As a single mom buying diapers alone can break you!! But we keep our heads up, and we keep doing what we gotta do. These are the days that make it all worth it..all the things we give up for our little ones, every opportunity we have to turn away(jobs, school, events, etc.), everytime we put their needs in front of ours..I'm so thankful just to have her in my life to put first..I'm thankful God made me into a woman that has her priorities in order. This little lady made me into who I am..everyday I spend with her, I know, these are the days to cherish and keep nearest to my heart, and I do. I always will.
Peace&love.
Emily and Laila.

Friday, March 18, 2011

blessed.

Well, I am sitting on the couch listening to Laila splash around in the tub before I head of to work..& I feel so blessed. I dont know where my life would have taken me without my sweet mini me, but I know she was/is the answer to my many prayers. She has turned me into the woman I am today, & I wouldn't trade a moment with her for a lifetime of anything else. She is my heart, my soul, my inspiration, & my motivation. One day, when she is older, I hope she will look up to me & understand the many hard choices I have had to make in order to better our lives. I'm so thankful for my friends & family that have been there for me along my journey, especially my two sisters. "We may not have it all together, but together we have it all."
Peace&Love-Emily&laila

For Emily and Laila

Love, Auntie A