My biggest achievement.

No matter what I achieve in this life..no matter how big or how small my biggest achievement will be becoming a mommy. There are so many things I can do in this life. I can travel and see the world, climb mountains and explore the sea, spend a lifetime chasing a dream, etc. All of these things seem unimportant with just a thought of my little one. Little hands and toes, sweet little kisses, and the most precious little words spoken by the most precious little human being. With just a glance at her I can see myself in the way she looks at the things, how she expresses herself, and even in her little chubby feet. She thinks I am the greatest thing in this world, this is so untrue, but I love this. She spends her days following me around the house mimicking everything that I may say or do. She even tries to wear my sunglasses just so she can be like her mommy. It is the most rewarding experience, having a child. I look at her, and I know everything she knows is because I have tought her even if I may have been unaware of it. Just the other day I saw her watching me blow my nose, later that day she took a few pieces of toilet paper from the roll, put it to her little button nose, and blew as hard as she could. She died in laughter so excited that she had done something that I had done... When she smiles, I smile the biggest, most genuine smile that have ever had and ever will have. When she laughs, even at something that may not be funny otherwise, I in turn die with laughter as well. She is my all, my little me. In my eyes she is perfect, and if I never achieve anything else in my life, I will still leave this world completely satisfied just because of my little love.

For goodness cakes.

So I absolutely love to bake and decorate cakes. I used to have several people that knew I could make them, and I so enjoyed making their birthday/wedding cakes. Now that I have relocated to south Alabama I have no "clientele" , if you will. This makes me sad, because this is something that I am passionate about, and it is fading away. What to do, what to do??

my love.

I feel like "men" these days are so clueless. They have absolutely no clue as to what a woman wants nor what she needs. To me, it is kind of pathetic. Sooo what if I spell it out? I am most certainly not a person who is afraid to say what she wants..If you can't give me what I want and deserve I will simply be on my way. If I am to ever tell you, "Holla at me when you can give me what I want..how I want it." Do not text or call me the next day with the same mess you offered me before. I do not think people understand. Strong women are hard to come by, yes that is true, but buddy boy you have stumbled unto one of the most head strong women that you will probably meet in your whole life. So, if by chance you want my love..I have a list of things you shall abide by..or you can kiss my "pretty little white ass" buh- bye. You can call me crazy. Okay, I can accept that. I demand my respect..if you demand my hand. Don't act like your my man if you're going to act as if you are a little helpless boy. I'm soo not into that.

These are the days..

Well, you could say I am the furthest away from a woman who depends on a man. However, on my off days I get a little glimpse of what it would be like to be a stay at home mom. I love spending all my time with Laila, and I hate having to be at work just in case I miss a special moment. I get so jealous when my dad tells me she's doing something new. It's like I'm her mommy!! I should get it all..after all I'm the one who made her my everything..I feel like she is a part of me. Sometimes I joke around at work and say I'm going to strap her to my back and bring her with me. Of course that wouldn't work, I know. But days like today, these are days I'm most thankful for. I guess being a working mom makes me appreciate the precious time I have with her even more. Even though sometimes I'm so tired from everything else I have to do just to keep my head above water..That makes me feel quilty. But we do what we can do. As a single mom buying diapers alone can break you!! But we keep our heads up, and we keep doing what we gotta do. These are the days that make it all worth it..all the things we give up for our little ones, every opportunity we have to turn away(jobs, school, events, etc.), everytime we put their needs in front of ours..I'm so thankful just to have her in my life to put first..I'm thankful God made me into a woman that has her priorities in order. This little lady made me into who I am..everyday I spend with her, I know, these are the days to cherish and keep nearest to my heart, and I do. I always will.
Peace&love.
Emily and Laila.

blessed.

Well, I am sitting on the couch listening to Laila splash around in the tub before I head of to work..& I feel so blessed. I dont know where my life would have taken me without my sweet mini me, but I know she was/is the answer to my many prayers. She has turned me into the woman I am today, & I wouldn't trade a moment with her for a lifetime of anything else. She is my heart, my soul, my inspiration, & my motivation. One day, when she is older, I hope she will look up to me & understand the many hard choices I have had to make in order to better our lives. I'm so thankful for my friends & family that have been there for me along my journey, especially my two sisters. "We may not have it all together, but together we have it all."
Peace&Love-Emily&laila

For Emily and Laila

Love, Auntie A